If only

I can be so sure
I can have your reassurance
I know what is really going on
I understand why this happen
I have all the faith
I have the courage to move on
I have the trust with myself
I love myself
I can be just grateful with I have right now
I am satisfied with myself
I don't have to put on my fake smile
I don't have to think too much
I can stop thinking negatively
I can stop being who I am right now
If only, if only, you are listening
If only all of these are nightmares
If only...

Weather today: Snowing/Hailing/Drizzling
Mood: A bit messed up
What I did today: Lectures/ Lunch with Dexie / Coffee-ing with Fenham guys for Daus Birthday / Shopping for stupid things
Currently: Listening to Imeem playlist / Thinking to nap, just could not, too much clouding in this little head of mine :)