Blogging!!!!!!

I know this is like the 3rd posts of the day, I CANNOT HELP IT.

I have to admit that I sort of cried again for Confessions of a shopaholic -- not because of the love story, but the morals, importance of family and friends. They are always with you in times of need and happiness. :)

Also, my day is brighter though Newcastle is so chilly right now, windy. Hearing his voice on the phone :) makes me smile, happy, warm -- ALIVE. I realise I don't need to be hours on the phone with him -- it would be nice to have a longer conversation. However a simple hello from him is more than enough for me. Imagining you are here with me this weekend. Not to worry I won't be sad (^_^) I will meet at Nan and perhaps sleep over at her place. Or go to the park to visit my lovely goat (not mine legally, but they are lovely and cute!)

Cannot believe it is already March! Panicking! I have not been revising or any sort. Soon is April and I am 22! I cannot wait to turn 25! Not sure why -- just want to look a bit more "adult". I am happy to look 16 right now, I am just jealous to see all these girls wearing adult looking shirt/dresses.

Random alert: Everytime I lay down on my bed. There is one thing I love to imagine. The sun shines to my face, sitting on the sandy beach looking at the sun sets. When I turn my head, I will see my youngest brother doing the stupid dance, or making boobies or willies with the sand for laugh, getting wet with the salty sea water, or we both just sit there quietly and laugh at each other coz we remember something. Such a click!

When I sit around the corner of my room -- it reminds me of my youngest sister forcing me to work my ass off to revise. Or her sleeping marathon. We arguing on stupid things, or we just talk some shit, cry together, laugh...

When I see restaurants -- all I can see is my two eldest sisters. They love food, they love quality time with me. I like to make them laugh and smile. I also miss their smiles. I cannot recall when is the last time I see you both smiling at me. Rindu kamu semua sangat.

Football -- My brother in laws! They are freak! LOL -- but I am blessed to have such an awesome brother in law. Bless you both.



My three little angels... These little angels of mine. The one who knows all the misery just by looking into my eyes. These angels, give me hugs and kisses when I need it the most. Missing all the silly fights for me, miss hearing them saying "babu. kami sayang babu..." "babu sedih?" "babu takut kah?" Oh angels -- I got so much to be frightened of but your smiles -- cure every single pain in this tortured soul of mine.

- nothing compares to you -