Ignorance is a bliss

Dear you,
I would like to share you how I feel today
You have left me for one reason that I disagreed
But I respect your decisions
Always put others first before myself
That's how I was taught
Make someone's day brighther
So I will feel the same
However, I do not need to feel more miserable than I am
Obviously you make me look very less important
Before and after you leave me
Friends? Close friends? Are we?
I have done so much and it is all from the bottom of my heart
In return I do not ask so much from you
But stop pushing me away from your everyday life, if we really are friends
Otherwise you can tell me the whole truth what you think of me personally
I do not need another miserable day of my life
Make it simpler now, coz I already move on
You are always that someone special in my memory
Though not sure where I stood in your life before
Somehow now... you wish us to be "good mates" -- we are now
Unfortunately, I do not feel like I am one of your good mates
I had enough of black clouds in my head
I am not complicated, a conversation will do
You know me, I do not say so much
Never complained to much either
It does not mean I have no "feelings"
I can still feel pain when you pinch or kick me
Please... do not make me feel so miserable with the thoughts of good mates & been ignored