Girl with many fantasies

This girl thinks she can handle it. She has been doing her best to not make a big deal out of this one thing. Besides, it won't be too long and it is not the end of the world. Somehow, she just can't face the truth that, things MAY change. She is a very stubborn person and she only believes that she will get whatever she wants and wishes. Another person in her life is going tomorrow. And seriously, she is not okay with anything. She did try everything that she could possibly do, not to think too much. I think she feel really attached with that someone. Losing lots of people in few months for good or temporarily is not something easy for her. She values every single person in her life. Coz they respect her and she does the same. She is blinded with so many things. All she can see is, someone is going to leave tomorrow. Nothing that she can do as she will not be in UK after 2010. Another thing that she has to consider. I am sure she does not mind -- but many will say give it up. She is not a quitter, will the other person not give up? Will both of them will TRUST and HAVE FAITH in each other while apart? It takes 2 person to make things happen in this matter. Once the other half failed, the whole relationship is destroyed, ended. To be honest, you can see this fear in her eyes. Unspeakable fear to lose another person that meant so much to her. In reality, she has not even over with losing her twin, birthday will be a bit suck for her this year. No that someone special, no twin, no family, nothing special for her. I better comfort this girl for a while, tears have wet her face, jeans... the whole box of tissue is almost empty. I really hope she will be stronger tomorrow, when the real thing will happen. People feel sorry for her and she really doesn't need it. She already feel sorry that he is leaving. After all, it is between her and him, no one else. "Hey calm down and think of the possible good things that could happen sooner or later, girl..."

Note: A note to herself